So another year of my life has gone and a new one begins.

This week I turned 24 and gosh I don't even know where time has gone, yeah I'm not that old but it feels like time is just flying by.

This past year has been well not the best but not the worst either, its been ehh to be honest. 

But I plan on making the most of everything now.

anyways, I thought I would share what I did on my birthday because why not.

On the day of, I wanted to hang out with my friends but unfortunately the older you get the harder it is to have all of your friends come together because of work or just other commitments. I had fun though with the girls that I got to spend it with. 

I also realized that last year on my birthday I had spent it with a group of 2 girls who weren't even involved in my birthday this year, which to be honest probably wouldn't have even talked to me if i hadn't invited to come out and even though they said yes

 they backed out at the last minute. 

The thing about me though is that it is very hard for me to trust people, yes thats my own problem but I don't stick around people long enough to allow them to earn my trust. I slowly begin to drift away from people that I surround myself with. A couple times I try to stay in touch but if I feel like they are not making an effort either than I just give up as well because why should I try ?

Maybe its wrong for me to think that but I cant help it.

But regardless of that I thought of reaching out to people who I was really closed to a couple months ago an try to get them to do something with me, not just go to a club or bar but to have dinner or something but there was no effort on the other side. The only thing it makes me think is that 1. I don't want to look pushy and needy for constantly asking to hang out and 2. maybe we weren't as close as I had thought. But those are just the thoughts that go in my mind and half of it is my fault the other is not.

I need to appreciate the friends that I have now and try to create lasting relationships with people

 because we all need interaction with others to help you when you are having a rough time.

My birthday was pretty good though, I'm not going to deny that.

The following day I actually went to Los Angeles with my family to spend the day.

We went to the Last Bookstore which was honestly pretty awesome, yeah its probably not something that you might want to do on your birthday BUT i enjoyed going through all the books and plus the library is pretty interesting looking inside as well.

after that we went to LACMA  although we didn't get to go inside I was able to show my little sister the tar pits 

and the very famous lamp post that are outside of it.

From there we headed to the grove and then out last stop was at the Griffith Observatory.

 Because we went at night time we were able to see all the lights form LA, and it was a beautiful site to be honest.

I didn't do anything crazy or out of the ordinary for my birthday but I had a pretty good time 

and I think that enjoying what I was doing was all that mattered.

All I can think about now is wow I'm closer to 30.

Hi guys,

I find it funny how many times I have started over and over this blog well more

like tried but gave up.I find that yes I love to write  but I also have been lacking the motivation that I needed to get up and do what I love. 

I fell into this downward spiral that has honestly lasted about 2 years. It lead me 

to leave the fashion world that I honestly love and it also took me to a very unhealthy relationship and unhealthy lifestyle. By unhealthy I mean that I stopped taking care of myself both physically and mentally. It has honestly been probably one of the worst times of my life. 

But I am sitting here now, typing this making a commitment to myself. To do what I love to do no matter what it is as well as trying new things in life. I am still young and I still have a lot that I need to do in this world to make a change not just for myself but hopefully inspire others even if it is just my younger sisters. I want to be a positive influence not someone who is seen as the 

“what you shouldn't do” example. 

As my birthday approaches (2 days from today) I realize that enough is enough and that I cant sit on my ass and not do something about it. 

I commit to keep myself accountable for the next couple of months to have a different lifestyle so that I become a better, well rounded person. I used to love 

reading and I cannot remember the last time I opened up a book in the past 2 

years. This blog will be a lifestyle blog, I will write about anything and everything that I find interesting. It could be a fashion post or maybe about a topic I heard of online, about my fitness journey to get back to a healthy lifestyle

 or about a book that I just finished reading. 

Either way I commit to make the change that needs to happen before I look back and regret not doing all the things that I should have done 

while I still have the chance.

We all go through a period in our lives where we are in a rut and don't know what to do, but what matters is that we find the motivation to climb out of the hole that we dug up on our own and make the change. Yes its hard but nobody will save us from our own wrong doings, they can help but it is up to us to accept the help.

I felt for a very long time that the things happening around me weren't my fault and that if it was my fault that there was nothing I could do to avoid them but in reality I had given up. It is hard to admit that to myself because I have always been a very confident person but one event in your life and totally throw your entire life upside down and cause so much chaos that you don't even realize what is going on until it is too late. Yes it took me 2 years to realize how wrong I was and for that switch to click 

BUT it happened and now it is up to me to move forward. 

Life is about learning and growing and that is exactly what I intend to do, yes I probably wont do well in everything I try to do but I commit to give it my 110% every single time no matter what, and if I fail its because I tried but it just wasn't meant to be and not because I tried and simply gave up because it was too hard.

Im not sure what my plan is but ill figure it out as I go and so will whoever chooses to accompany me in this journey through my blog. Maybe your someone going through the same situation as well and we can motivate each other. 

But for now I say goodnight.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

p.s. I though of deleting my previews post but ehh I think ill keep some of them as a way to remember what it was before

hello lovelies !

so for my last San Diego fashion week post i thought i would post about my outfits.

i know that this is supposed to be a fashion related type blog, 

but i sometimes feel a little self conscious when asking people to take pictures of my outfits,

i know i shouldn't be but it just gets way awkward for me haha

anywho on with the post.

The first event I attended was at the W Hotel, in which we had to wear our "work shirts"

but we were also allowed to dress it up a little bit. I thought it would be cool to have a little rockerish 80 inspired look going on and I think i did an okay job at it ? hopefully lol

top:SD fashion week AA tshirt // lace skirt: forever 21 // shoes: Foreign Exchange

accessories: casio gold watch // purple skull bracelet 

For the actual show we were not able to wear anything to fancy just the shirt and jeans with some comfy shoes so i thought it would be too basic to post.

For the trunk show event which happened to be on the last day, the dressers and anybody else who helped was able to attend as a guest. This ofcourse meant that we were able to dress up and look nicer.

dress: Forever 21 // blazer: Foreign Exchange // heels: Local Boutique

Accessories: collar necklace // Casio gold watch

Hope you guys enjoy the rest of your day !

thanks so much for taking your time to read my post (:

Les mando muchos besos y palabritas de amor<3